I have been deeply troubled with a couple of things on and off (mostly on) for the past few years. The vicious cycle of stopping and starting new again finally came to an end with beginning P90X in August of 2009. Chris and I followed the eating and exercise program to the letter and thought we finally put an end to the VICIOUS CYCLE. We completed the program, both of us felt great and were very lean. After this I cut down a bit on working out as planned and loosened up on the food restrictions (ate cake etc) and after awhile, BOOM. I felt like I was at the beginning and never even achieved a thing. I needed something to jerk me out of my VICIOUS CYCLE that had started again in force. I began the Insanity workout and did very well. I got a sinus infection after a few weeks and had to stop for 2 weeks. I began again and never made it all the way to the end of the 60+ days. Chris did and he looked incredible. I have managed to start and stop about 50 BILLION times since. I say screw it, get depressed, and EAT. I adore sweets (most recovering alcoholics have out of control sweet tooth's).
Dang it, I have quit smoking AND been sober for years ..... WHY can't I do this????? Perhaps it is psychological. I won't let myself have it. I dunno. I do pray about it almost every day. I am not putting it into action.
SO, with all that being said, this morning as I was journaling I was praying that God will show me a different approach to this exercise thing because doing the same thing over and over is not working. It instantly came to mind that I need to be accountable to someone or something every day. I do not want to use Chris as an accountability person. Our marriage can not currently handle any more stress.
I will be accountable to my bog. I will workout m-f and plan my daily intake in the morning after I do coffee/pray/read/journal. The eating piece is really important. I have severe IBS and I am not kind to my stomach. That really needs to stop. Unless I am sick or there is an emergency, I will post my workout after it has been completed Monday - Friday for the next 8 weeks. I am giving it a time frame because I will want to evaluate how things are going and make a new goal. I think workable short term goals will be best. I am a one day at a time kinda gal. I would love prayers for strength and trust that the Lord will help me with this. I am very, very serious about this. I feel terrible every single day. My stomach ALWAYS hurts because I am not taking care of myself. This is not just a "I want to look good" thing, this is a "I need this to improve my quality of life" thing.
Danny update ....
My sweet handsome brilliant wonderful loving boy is doing very well in treatment. I never knew he was capable of so much. It really is 1 step forward 2 steps back in getting sober. Danny has a good bit of behavioural pieces and mental obstacles along with that, so I am especially proud of him for making it this far. Please continue to pray for him. I am hoping he will begin to earn come home for 24 hour passes in the next couple of weeks. I can't wait!!!
We have about a foot or more of new snow and we are not nearly finished with this storm!
I'll be adding a few new pieces to the shop in the next day or so.
Thanks for listening.
Will avoiding the camera 
Your Divine Valentine
Workout ~ P90X Plyometrics
Chris is going to move my vise (it's in a terrible spot) and make me a hammer holder that hold 5 hammers and it will be set on glides so it will pull out from under my bench like a drawer! I don't like reaching or getting up for hammers. I'll take a pic when it's finished. I told him he should create bench organizers etc and sell them in my shop. 
