I don't like being a half-assed blogger, but it happens.
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I am looking forward to the boys beginning school on August 30. I think they are ready to go back for the first year ever. It has been a summer of really beautiful weather that I have actually enjoyed. I normally do not care for temperatures over 80 degrees, I wonder what is different this year?
The boys are on each other's nerves like you would not believe. Will mouths Danny as if they were the same size. I really don't understand this because Danny could absolutely destroy that little boy. I think little brothers of big brothers are the toughest kids on the planet.
Chris has been busy this weekend replacing wood under our siding and a basement window that has rotted. Danny worked with him. Chris is not the easiest person to work with, especially if you are his son. He is actually very nasty with his demands and quite critical. I overhead them from in the kitchen and under my breath (kind of) I was calling Chris every name I could think of. I paid Danny an extra $5 for putting up with him. Is that wrong?? (Yes, of course it is, I know that). I have a hard time with not getting involved with Chris' relationship with the boys. I also have a resentment with Chris that is popping up in all aspects of our relationship. I really need to resolve this resentment (for those of you in recovery, you know how imperative that it for "us")
New subject........
My workout schedule is working out very nicely. I did not have to tweak it too much, it just worked out nicely. I am adding in another running day on my "arms and shoulders" day. I find that workout the least tiring (no push ups or pull ups, just free weights). I have been running the same 4 miles for a bit and it feels really good. I do need to continue to build up endurance, and I am.
I will admit that I am having an awful time staying away from junk food. Oh my goodness!! I can see exactly what I am doing, yet I still do it. I am self medicating and filling a void. I do still feel the void of not smoking cigarettes. It has been a long time and I don't crave them EVER thanks be to God, but there is that bit of emptiness I feel and I know that is what used to fill it. I know what I need to try and fill it with and you know I am going to say it....
Jesus
....but I get lazy and impulsive and think that carrot cake is a much quicker fix and something I can actually see and control. Prayer is not.
My brain rewards me when I eat something sweet by releasing more happy chemicals, so it's not ALL me. I need to retrain it to release the happy chemicals during healthy things. Is that possible? I think so. Us alcoholics/addicts certainly do it when we get sober. We replace the substance with a spiritual solution. This should be no different. The cake releases the same happy chemicals as the alcohol/drugs, right?!
Next subject......
I will be creating new jewelry this week, finally! I was really busy last week with creating the orders from my anniversary sale, so I did not have time to make anything new. Business last week was sad at best so I have no "Monday list" to tackle. Well, not really. I would expect new pieces tomorrow at the soonest. I wonder what I will make?? I am really loving the bracelets. I wore one for a little less than a week to see how it felt. I did not take it off for bed or showers. I am incredibly picky about how jewelry "wears". I don't like to change my jewelry and I don't take it off unless I am working out (bracelets). I am very impressed that a 4 stone large link bracelet is so light weight and comfortable, I was not even aware of it. The stones don't flip over or roll while on the wrist, that's the best part. So, I wanna make more.
I'll wrap it up with another cutie picture found on my camera yesterday afternoon while yet again uploading new stone pictures for a customer.
